Cyndi Lauper - Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

OMG I'm finally in my bed. I spent a week by the sea and I just had a blast, it was the best time like.. EVER. It was full of everything - sunbathing, dancing in undies (we started every single day with girls just wanna have fun!), going for long night walks, spontaneous swimming with clothes on, laughing from chippendale-looking but dumbass-thinking foreign boys screaming "we love you", dancing naked in the sea at night, having drunk photoshoots, smiling when looking in the mirror which was covered in lipstick written words and kissing marks, finding it impossible to get up in the mornings after sleepless nights but laughing from the photos of them in our beds, having picknics, playing volleyball with professionals, listening to the sea from our bedroom, trying to remember the boys that took us home the previous night after buying us flowers and champagne, listening to live music, telling our love/ life stories to strangers, killing my phone (seriously! the worst thing is that I can't even remember what I've done to it at one of those nights), teasing our extremely fat neighbors with piles of sweets, sleeping in the park in the afternoons, swimming in the rain, secretly admiring the super sweet ice-cream boy who was playing the guitar and singing or reading books (!) everytime we passed him on our way to the store, fighting non-stop with our landlady and hoping she wouldn't tell about our adventures to my dad (she knows him!), being photographed while jogging (like wtf??), making the boys sing for us (♥), getting home with the sunrise, listening to madonna with walls spinning around, attracting boys who 'had no light' with our torches every 5 minutes at 4 a.m., drinking coffee in the cosiest places on earth and doing so many crazy things that i'll never forget. I can't believe it's been only 2 weeks of my summer and I've already had more adventures than in the whole year. 

P.S. My kitten had a depression while I was gone!!! But now she's on my stomach and everything's fine again. In some way, it's good to be back. It's time to sleep enough and get ready for the rest of the summer, right?:)

roadtrips? baby, we invented them

chill

We really really really do love our balcony:)

into the wild

I really can't describe how happy I am right now. I don't even know where this happiness came from, I'm just glad it found me and it feel's like it's staying for a while. Last few days I felt I didn't exist. No texting, no internet, no TV, no distractions, no confusing people. Only some movies on my laptop, a few books and a BFF. After the exams we wanted to relax somehow, but we didn't go to the seaside because of the crappy weather. But there is a wonderful place for disappearing - the garden! We just loved reading, watching movies, running 2 km a day (and walking even more), laughing, hiding from the sudden rain or trying to catch every magical sunshine with our faces.. Yep, no-lifing. Right now it's all I want. No parties, no shopping, no nothing. Just me, her and these breathtaking moments like the one this morning when we decided to have breakfast right on the rooftop, watching the clouds passing by.

the sky was sad today

The last exam is written! We had a little celebration, but I somehow don't feel happy. Maybe not just yet? I want to start my holidays on a high note and I hope it will go as planned right from tomorrow. Cause today I can't find a place for me, I don't know what to do, I went to the garden, then shopping (almost nothing bought).. I feel that I have so much time that I don't know where to start! And the traitor mood isn't helping.

eating strawberries and daydreaming

I've finally found a place to study! You can see it above. Windowsills are such an incredible invention! While sitting on  one you can open the window and catch every wind blow with your skin - paradise! I should look really silly from the outside (not to mention that when it's hot I'm in my undies or some oversized shirt) but who cares! 

You can start calling me the strawberries and cold drinks defeater as I can't stop. Yum. Dreaming about summer still takes most of my time. The only thing left for me is to pray that the exam will be easy. Or that by some chance it will include questions about sun creams, air temperature for a month ahead and mojito ingredients.

failed attempt to stick my little nose out

Do you know how bad it hurts when you read posts about careless summertime, long nights, light (and heavy!) drinks, loud music and stuff, and you stay at home and the only thing you allow yourself to do is watch a random movie before going to bed? 8 days of pain are left for me. I try to study, I swear - I do my best, but it's simply impossible. It's so hot, I just can't concentrate. And when I do I accidently get a message inviting me to go by the lake or come to a party. And then I start feeling pity for myself and later I dream about the time I would be spending. I did terribly in my previous exam and I don't have any motivation to study for the next one. But as I said - I try to do my best. Today I jumped into a car and went to the garden, I thought it would be quiet, relaxing and inspiring to work. Haha, right. Idea no.1 failed at once: it's impossible to sunbathe and concentrate on studying at the same time. Idea no.2 seemed to be just perfect: laying in the shadow under a tree on the other side of the garden, so cool and peaceful! But I'm quite a city girl and all those bugs dropping on me from the tree and climbing on my mat from the grass weren't very attractive. No, I wasn't scared or anything, it's just I paid too much attention to them and forgot my books. Idea no.3 was to barricade myself in the house, away from all those distractions. But I started to hear dogs barking, birds singing (yes, even they bothered me! What a horrible person am I??), people walking by.. Eventually I caught myself texting my BFF. After a waisted hour in the garden I packed my stuff and went home to study in darkness, with all windows shut to prevent incoming sounds. I'm starting to become a little freak, I swear. 

Enjoy your summer. 

Seriously, you don't know how precious it is.

i will always be a part of you

 
A long long time ago at school I had to write a letter to myself. I have forgotten all about it and yesterday I got an envelope! I had no idea what I had written there but when I started reading it a smile couldn't disappear from my face. :))

Brangi Kvaiša,

BAIGEI MOKYKLĄ! Sveikinu, nors visiškai nepajėgiu to įsivaizduoti, pati tai patirsiu dar labai labai negreit. Bet labai noriu kai ką tau pasakyti.

Žinai, ateity keisis žmonės, meilės, aplinka, draugai, tačiau svarbiausia, kad liktum savimi. Būk ištikima sau, savo ambicijoms ir įsitikinimams, nes tai yra the best thing about you.

Beje, laikykis, studijuoti juk nebus lengva. Nors pamatysi, tu tai ištversi, ir bus FUN, pažadu. Būk didesnė optimistė, kaip kad aš dabar. Ir šiaip, kaip man įdomu, kuo tu pavirsi! Kas iš tavęs išaugs. Jau žinau, kad doras, draugiškas, stropus ir uolus žmogus. Nepamiršk to, gerai? Neapvilk manęs.

Nepamiršk manęs, tos jaunos mergaitės. Visada būsiu dalis tavęs.

XOXO,

dar neužaugusi Kvaiša

big girls don't cry

It's so crazy!! Today was officially my last day at school and I feel so weird. I'm not sure whether I'm happy or a little sad, it's both I guess. Even though I was sure that I would be so excited and not sentimental at all, after all those teachers' last speeches, hugs and kisses I just can't help myself. 12 years in the same building, a day after day. OMG I'm graduating!!!! Tomorrow's gonna be a wild day: we'll all decorate cars in the morning (I can imagine girls in tiny dresses and heels mincing around cars while laughing and drinking champagne, so much fun!), go to school, have a little ceremony and then go PAAARTYING. Can't wait! Some few last parties I stopped myself a little, I wasn't in the mood and/or felt responsibility for the exams. But this very moment I want to let it go and just get wasted, forgetting everything in the world. The next exam is only on Wednesday so I'll have time (please don't remind me my promises, I know, I know!!). 

I have no idea what to wear, as always my closet is empty. And I've heard it's going to rain so my outfit possibilities reduce from 0 to minus 10.

I'm off to have a peek inside it one more time.

Kisses! ♥

two down, two more to go

Only four days are left for me at school and that's just crazy. The fact that I'll be done with everything can't reach my brains very easily. This is supposed to be the hardest time for me, but I don't do anything useful! It kills me, I've never thought I could be so lazy. Yesterday I had a wonderful time in the garden with my girl - champagne, laughter, sunbathing and relaxation. Today is going to be a bit tougher I guess. Two exams are left and they require some preparation (I didn't do anything for my previous exams, how lame is that?!). My books are already in the balcony together with icy lemon water, hair is on top of my head messy and my nightwear seems to be staying on me (it's just too hot to change into something proper). 

I can't wait for the day I'll lay on sand with a good book in one hand, a cocktail in other and a BFF by my side.  Only some weeks are left!

P.S. the comments are back, guys! :)